a new year

Since January 09, I felt that I had been living on borrowed time, my time isn't mine, its only there because of the gracious fate had decided to push my enlistment date to the last quarter of last year,
Pre-enlistment medical checkup in February 09, working at IRAS from march to July.
Granddad died on August 10th, one day after National Day.
BMT from September to December.
One thing remained constant throughout, NS.
Not National Service but Night Safari.
I missed the times where we all chiong shifts. In retrospect, it was tiring but fun and satisfying.
That's why I still appear at NS.
I have and will always try to maintain some degree of normalcy, some semblance of life before enlistment and of course try to erm,aiya.-----

Some other matter-
I've said it before.
Like all the stars that died millions of years ago
We look up the night sky, still seeing them twinkling bright.
But,we must know the fucking fact that they are all long dead.
even the speed of light traveling at 300,000km/seconds isn't fast enough to bring news of their demise on time, to us.
even the universe is telling us something,
somethings are just out of reach and denial won't bring back the stars.

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May 2010 pass by fast-
Let there be world peace - I'm in an active combat unit so this is important, no longer bullshit standard Miss Universe answer.
but more than anything,
Health and prosperity to friends and families.