Not a career I want.

I don't want a job that requires me to sell stuff. I lack the ruthlessness attribute to be good at it. I knew this is not my path years ago.

I saw it in her eyes. She must have felt helpless, cornered by the necessaries that I artfully shaped and motivated by the motherly love she has for that irritating, self-entitled brat by her side.

I knew I had her, because she came back and asked for me. Out of the sea of people, she returned for me! Only a fool will fail to close the deal now. 3000 bucks for a primary school kid tablet! It is only the start of the 2nd day, i will be the envy of many!

"Hello, Im back...remember me from an hour ago?"
"Of course Miss! So you have decided?".
"Hmm...". I sense some hesitation and she continues to look at the brouchure.

"Go in for the kill now. Make your offer, throw her lots of free gifts, free ram upgrades, whatever! Nows the time. Tip her of the edge!" Some part of my mind spoke in silence.

But her eyes. Their movements stirred something in me. They were looking at the brouchure, the price and then she looked at her kid. Back and forth she went and then she let out a barely audible sigh and a slight shake of her head.

And then I felt something coming out of her.
Motherly love.

"All right, Ill buy this 2799 model."

My thoughts of selling the tablet to her were vanquished by that motherly love aura. A thousand others filled the void. Thoughts of you cant do this, you know its not right, that brat dont deserve this, dont need that kind of laptop for primary school, the model she wants cost only 800 bucks.

"You know what Miss," I pulled her to a side, out of earshot of the booth owner.

"The model your son need is gona cost you less than a thousand bucks. This model you wanted to buy is not the right one at all. Look at the camera, its only at the back. The requirements you showed me earlier on mentioned "skype capable with front facing camera". This does not have it. And youre paying so much just for the high def screen which your son dont need at all."

There, I sabotaged my own deal but I felt pretty good about it. And thats when I know I will never be a top salesman because Im not ruthless enough.

When i said those words, I can feel some weight lifted off her. Recounting this, I can still feel it too. Like a song that brings back memories and evoke feelings.

Having knowledge is powerful, you can influence others less knowledgable. Say the right thing to lead them down the wrong path, tell white lies, stretch the truth, do anything to serve our own self-interest which often means commission at the end of the month.

I try everyday to be honest when Im dealing with customers. But sometimes people are just so gullible and I cant get to them first.

Oh my god, I think I have developed a messiah complex at work.

Come on, wheres my biomed job.