Road map

Another typical day here in Kranji.
Bunch of us just reading straits times,
testing the limit of our spines by subjecting it to unnatural postures with the sofa,
listening to the prank calls made by the married men and the muttons on radio.
I am slightly disturbed by the whole scene, it feels not right, kept thinking there must be
something more meaningful to be and do?

Yes I am part of them, im aware of that.
Blessed with awareness, it would be stupid of me to ignore it and carry on the downward spiral with these unproductive behaviors into the abyss of nothingness.

I need my goals, my own shiny beacons like the olympic flame, i need my dreams, to kick me out of limbo state.

I took out my phone and googled "medical school in Singapore."

Apparently NTU is setting up the 3rd med sch in a few years, I can only hope that they offer a non-traditional route, post graduate program for people with degrees. Currently, don't think NUS is accepting post grad deg applicants, Duke-NUS is only taking in like what?50 people via that route and its their only route. So that practically amount my chances to 1%. Yeah whatever,got to get my science degree first.

But how do I get the science degree when my gpa cant get me into a local U?
There are three options. PSB, MDIS or go Australia.
3 options made me realise something, if you know something you want earlier, you can get it at a cheaper rate and even government helps you with all the scholarships and bursaries.

If im aware of what im aware of now a few years earlier, probably before O levels, maybe in Sec 2, things would have been so much easier. And the cost would have been substancially reduced! Bbut I just got to take the longer and more expensive route, not by choice, actually it is by choice but im not consciously aware of it.

Who in secondary schools takes the future seriously? All I know is the triple Gs, games, girl and goofing around.

Alot of stuff can be predicted 10 years in advance by what we were doing 10 years back. Those express friends of mine, some graduated from NUS recently, one doing ACCA, one drawing 2k+ salary from some firm, one is a Chef. Back then, they were all hardworking girls and now they have their own accomplishments.

I dont know if I have the perseverance to undertake this huge task of earning a medical degree. Its a costly thing to do and the long route is really long. I want house,car,wife,kids,money, like everyone else and all these cannot happen without money. I dont want to enter 30s with shitload of debt

So whats the plan? Get my degree first plus buy toto and 4ds and hope for a windfall, somehow someday I will strike according to the law of average.Hah.

Writing this, is me taking control of my life from the mindless everyday droning of National Service.
What the fuck have you done lately?