How did it ever turned out this way? I'm feeling soured.

Am I expecting you to be with me? Yes, of course I do. Pardon my selfish thought but yes I do, no matter the odds stacked against me, I need to. People call them dreams. It is pathetic that I have to DREAM to be with you. It is not exactly a walk in the garden to just let go, if it were that easy, I won't be me.
So you think I'm complaining all the time? I thought u were genuinely concern but no, all these time you actually think that I am complaining, you were just playing a role in patronizing me. You just don't know how much it hurts because I don't show.