clownified"

A few whys here and there
But the answers I seek are not in the air.
Leave me to the torments of the night
Its pressing chill closing on tight.
Constricted, I want to scream
but who would hear the dull melodies.
Coldness I felt over my shoulders
oh welcome back, my aching reminder of loneliness.
In the dark I see the second of me
Its open arms beckoning me.
"Welcome back brother" he said wryly.

Now I feel words are all that I have left, friends? I can count with a hand. So much thoughts, it would be a pity if its left floating around in my mind.

Trust misplaced.
Taboo displayed.
Pressured into revealing.
Conned into confiding.
All these while with an exposed back.
Im a fool
used like a tool for her amusement
at the expense of my involvement.
But no I don't hate you to the core
Instead, thank you for letting me feel how friendship rots.

For you my friend hw, I thought I found someone I could confide but instead you hanged my dirty linen in the open. Thinking back you made me feel like im a fuking clown all these while.

How to sleep how to sleep?
Close your eyes and think of nothing.
She said "I am nothing."
and so unknowingly I drifted to you.
How to sleep how to sleep?
Close your eyes, take a deep breath and lay still
A song played " Your the air that I breathe"
and so unknowingly I drifted to you again.
How to sleep how to sleep?
Close your eyes, take a deep breath and think of good things.
But the only good things I knew happened when your around
and so unknowingly i drifted to you again.
Hai how to sleep when you became my everything.

--