I fell into a pit.

I have boundaries to observe, but not in here.

I swear the first thing that went through my mind when I open my eyes every single day, I saw images of you.
Yes, I have fallen into a pit of raging feelings and bitter longings. Lucky ones find them turned into a bed of roses while those not so lucky ones had to deal with the cruel tentacles that would turn, coil, twist them over the course time and often, they face it alone.

I felt a chilling cold grip grabbed by my chest and dreadful thoughts echoed. Every word a stabbing dagger. No, there was no physical pain but in place was a feeling that surpasses all other suffering in this world. An aching heart.

A soft throbbing coldness centered at chest level, the sudden intake of one deep breath and the moisture gathering near the windows of my soul. All of this, so familar years ago yet I can never get use to it. It all came back to me now and I know the situation is dire.

There are times where I fought and force myself to think rationally against the impulse of moments here and there. I cursed bitterly and bit my thumb as the it unfolded.
A part of me wanted to just tell her how much she means to me but I simply cant do it! In case anyone is wondering, Im not gutless.

A side of me: " Your an arsehole Tylar, shes tagged first and she remains tagged. "
Another side of me: " Boy boy..., faint heart never won fair lady eh! "

My mind is on a rampage. It seems that there are so many issues, so heavy. The harder I think, I slowly realised it all boils down to you.
Ah so, this girl became a root of my problems.
I wont deny that many problems are self inducing ones.